♔Regina♔
☮ Young | Wild | Free ☮
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aku kadang bingung. kadang aku ngerasa jadi orang yang dibutuhin sama mereka. tapi kadang juga aku ngerasa kalo mereka itu ga nganggep aku ada. padahal aku ada disana, tapi mereka itu kaya ga ngeliat aku. mereka asik aja gitu sama obrolan mereka. apa emang aku ga penting dimata mereka, atau aku punya salah, atau aku tuh ga pantes temenan sama mereka. kadang aku suka mikir juga, gimana kalo misalnya aku ga ada. apa mereka bakal nyariin aku? bakal inget aku? bakal kangen aku? bakal nangisin aku? aku ga terlalu mempermasalahin hal ini. tapi bisa ga sih? kalian itu ada respect-nya dikit aja sama aku.
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School is still the same.. there’s still that one guy that you get up and go to school for in the morning. The one with the mysterious confidence that every girl falls for. Those years of school wouldn’t have been the same without him. I wouldn’t have been the same without himNever Been Kissed
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I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you’re unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. You’re the epitome of every attribute and quality I’ve ever looked for in another person. I know you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. But I had to say it. I can’t take this anymore. I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you. I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels. I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. I know this will probably queer our friendship-no pun intended-but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this before, and I like who I am because of it. And if bringing it to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn’t allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is the inevitable shoot-down. And I’ll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that-atleast not for ten seconds-and try to dwell it in. Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this f***ing planet who’s ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it’s there between you and me, you can’t deny that. And even if we never speak again after tonight, please know that I’m forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me, which-while I do appreciate it-I’d never need a painting of birds bought at a diner to remind me of.
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Hi! eh hari ini hari pertama UN ya? semangat kakak-kakak kalian pasti bisa! hari ini juga hari pertama libur. huft~ walaupun libur juga tugas tetep aja numpuk. ada yang suruh bikin skripsi lah, alat praktikum lah, di suruh ke puskesmas lah. wth yeah liburan kali ini…
dan rasanya akhir-akhir ini tuh ngerasa banget random feeling. banyak banget perasaan yang muncul tiba-tiba. antara sedih, seneng, gundah gulana, galau, tersiksa batin, dan teman-temannya itu, gatau kenapa akhir-akhir ini jadi suka ngerasa kaya gitu. perasaan yang ga bisa di omongin. kalo di tanya kenapa, pasti aku jawab gapapa, tapi sebenernya hati aku tuh ga enak, di hati aku tuh ada apa-apa. dan aku gatau gimana mau ngomongin perasaan aku, dan aku juga gatau kenapa aku kaya gitu.
kayanya ini yang namanya titik jenuh. gatau harus ngapain, gatau harus gimana, gatau harus bilang apa, gatau harus ngapain. jenuh buat bilang kalo aku itu gapapa, jenuh buat ngelakuin hal yang sama setiap hari, jenuh buat ketemu orang-orang yang itu-itu aja, jenuh sama hidup aku yang gini-gini aja, jenuh sama semuanya. I need new activities, I need new people arround me, I need holiday, I need money, I need someone who can understand me in every moment, I need someone who cares me, I need something good in my life, I need YOU!
